Leaving Behind, Vol. I-III, by Foster Hilding

Leaving Behind, Vol. I-III

by Foster Hilding

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1.	midnight paintings 05:05	lyrics	buy track
Writing love songs about no one Singing prose into the night The flight, the flight Never come down Never come down We will fly Fly
2.	band idea III 00:23		buy track
3.	bullet 05:20	lyrics	buy track
They gave me everything So I am their slave I want it Bullet I want to be saved And guilty I am yours Indebted to your hate I can't walk away Guilty I am I can't say no Then I am weak Can't let it go Need to be free Mmm And guilty I am yours Indebted to your hate Guilty I am Hate is the father I am offspring Can't get away Guilty I am Guilty I am Yeah
4.	i'm sorry 06:42	lyrics	buy track
You are a fire and noise I can't put out or shut up I sometimes wish I never knew you I regret all the things that I've done to you I'm sorry For not loving you at the right time I wish I could go back in time Love Of my dreams I won't ask again I see where you stand I see it's done for me I'm needed no more I'll just take my leave I wish I could escape The thought of your arms wrapped around my body The thought of your warmth next to me while I drift to sleep But nothing really dies You never learn the truth And I can't Know you
5.	golgotha 08:31		buy track
6.	something 01:45		buy track
7.	western song idea 03:50		buy track
8.	the night 08:21	lyrics	buy track
The evening light blurs the lines in your face A serine face of expressionless contempt On everyone A mask that lies in silence I walked outside The cars were silent The scum of the city was put to rest for a night The sky lit up with the moon and I stepped into the street in my socks It was beautiful For the first time, I felt that I was alive I now longer fear the night I felt the thunder I felt the rain In the dark It all became the same
9.	shipwreck 03:05		buy track
10.	crossroads 03:30	lyrics	buy track
I walked with you Your hair glistened and my eyes blurred in the dark The ground was wet and so my feet were The teeth of the grass felt nice and cool You looked at me With your eyes and your face I couldn’t give you what you wanted
11.	wait 04:08	lyrics	buy track
Wait There’s something that I need to say Can’t live A life of exposition I need to escape From this Cycle of Ill regrets Escape down Down Down Wait At the line To savor these Moments of trust I give up On life On pushing forward Inside the darkest waters Where we lie Oh the truth It bleeds Down Down Down Down Easy goes and I bid you well I bid you well
12.	virus 07:20		buy track
13.	idea 00:48		buy track
14.	a song i used the original title for for my band 01:25	lyrics	buy track
Every time you hope Is it a lost cause? You've burned all the bridges You were meant to cross And if you need a place to hide From the heat And the debris from inside Then come on in
15.	rough 06:09	lyrics	buy track
Something in these walls Is eating my heart now It's breathing down my neck And it's spitting me out Something in these arms That isn't me anymore If there's something left to say I'd like to say it now: I miss you I am lost and I am new Please don't listen to me anymore I lost myself somewhere I can't imagine where I stop and the one I want to be begins Am I something new? Am I the same that I have always been? Am I something new? Am I the same that I have always been? You said there's something more More to life than weeping I want it I need it But it's all in my head Am I something new? Am I the same that I have always been? Am I something new? Am I the same that I have always been?
16.	the great divide 01:46	lyrics	buy track
Light the street up This is a robbery Turn over their cars Break their windows This is not a choice It’s a peaceful chance for change This is where you choose This is the great divide Robbery Of liberty The is the great divide Robbery Of liberty This is the great divide Ah ah ah Ah ah ah This is the great divide Ah ah ah Ah ah ah This is the great divide
17.	acoustic thingy 01:38		buy track
18.	senator's song 02:39	lyrics	buy track
In the midst of a bleak Autumn wind You rose and told the tale Of a house of cards They fell down They wore a mask called The court A senators song They whispered Will ring through the canyon walls It is agony that drives us But love that must keep us home Gone all the women and children They knew the truth before But rebel before the captain As we fall before the truth
19.	song idea VII 07:19		buy track
20.	a false start 04:23		buy track
21.	ether 02:37		buy track
22.	and essence 08:00		buy track
23.	all 04:52		buy track
24.	interlude 01:02		buy track
25.	i need you to know 05:36		buy track
26.	infomass 04:17		buy track
27.	once 01:39		buy track
28.	fuck fufckfuck 02:00		buy track
29.	starr 02:19		buy track
30.	rainsong 01:09		buy track
31.	swarming 03:40		buy track
32.	floorboards 03:15		buy track
33.	buffalo 04:09		buy track
34.	improvised piano 01:45		buy track
35.	piano idea 00:51		buy track
36.	gnossienne no. 2 (erik satie) 02:36		buy track
37.	colors (demo) 04:24	lyrics	buy track
Clouds of grey and waters red Paint the scene a solemn wed Brush is bloodied with the dead and the alive And the blue tears drip from doubt Oh yeah Whoa oh oh whoa oh Whoa oh oh whoa oh Black and white Black and white All I see, turned black Black and white Black and white All I see, turned black Singing the songs from the mountain Looking, finding Singing the songs from the mountain Looking, finding All my life I've been Looking, searching All my life I've been Looking, searching One day may I Find what I'm searching for One day may I Find what I'm searching for
38.	words (demo) 04:07	lyrics	buy track
The mountain shakes, the icy ridge The lion wakes from rest World turns slow for restless soles The rest have left the nest Words that empty souls might leave Lions prey for meat And the empty souls they eat I pray they are not mine Lion wait don't take me I have not said enough Eat me tear me what else Just let me say my words
39.	demri's ballad 01:33		buy track
40.	parisian gates (acoustic) 04:02	lyrics	buy track
Supersized angel Is paralyzed from the waist down Can't breathe in this moonlight Need to see why to act right, yeah Nonetheless there's a secret Of pain to come and fears left Wide and wide, arms out Ocean vast, where the wind blows I
41.	intro (in-tube) (demo) 01:45		buy track
42.	love letters to japan (oslo demo) 02:58		buy track
43.	not epitaph 03:36		buy track
44.	summerland (egor) 04:11	lyrics	buy track
Where I'm Born Where I stay I hope to God they aren't the same place Summer Hate Mud-wet pits Wreckage of the heart is rich Taste the blood and lick your lips I didn't know when I was home Left here for the open road Maybe I can breathe here longer than I know I didn't know when I was home Scattered Brains All over me, yeah I know that you feel the pain too But I could be here when you're sleeping Can someone tell me if I'm home? Left in search of something more, long ago Maybe one day, some day I'll realize what went wrong If I'm at home from long ago Yeah I'm still home Where's my home Can someone tell me if I'm home? Travel roads that beat my soul, oh Maybe one day someday I'll realize what went wrong If I'm at home from long ago Can someone tell me if I'm home Left there for the open road
45.	trying 01:05		buy track
46.	life in the theater 01:20	lyrics	buy track
Leaves in a movie There live people and cities within the flowers Lying in the dirt is the man Full-grown Covered in the ant-people from head to toe Here he bakes in the hot Spring Sun (Submerged in the soil) He grows like a twisted flower With thorns and grey skin His leaves never wilt and never fall (But spread darkness and red blood into the manure he grows) Never into the world of ants and people (This world of plants and buildings) These leaves in a movie fall like dark planes
47.	medicine bottle (red house painters) 02:09		buy track
48.	raspberry pi song 00:26		buy track
49.	still trying 06:18		buy track
50.	the sound 01:21		buy track
51.	mixer w tape delay and chorus 07:10		buy track
52.	song idea IX 03:44		buy track
53.	??? 01:00		buy track
54.	loop test 02:10		buy track
55.	band song idea II 05:10		buy track
56.	song idea VI 01:15		buy track
57.	blue monday (new order) 02:45		buy track
58.	new song? 00:52		buy track
59.	loop test song 11:25		buy track
60.	sad song 01:12		buy track
61.	guitar idea 05:44		buy track
62.	song idea IV 02:06		buy track
63.	on a beach in hawaii 05:16		buy track
64.	masuzio 01:35		buy track
65.	... 01:19		buy track
66.	december 04:50	lyrics	buy track
I was a rock upon your doorstep You were the gateway to my life While we sat whispering our secrets I didn’t care if the world passed us by It was you You were it Something I always wanted It was nothing Just you playing with my hair It was you You were someone I never knew I needed Until now I feel like a selfish prick I could replay every moment we had without failure As if every single one was an endless short story How many different places did we lay out in the open? How many hours did we spend in the cold? You were warm I was cold You were the one that filled some darkness The shooting star I wished For that moment to never end It was you It was me It was an endless meaningless moment It was you It was me I was still some selfish prick It was you It was me It was you It was me It was you It was me It was you It was me It was me
67.	acoustic thingy 01:42		buy track
68.	rocket ship (demo) 03:52	lyrics	buy track
I wish I was a rocket ship To fly you far away Somewhere I can keep you safe Somewhere we will be I wish I was a rocket ship I wish i was a shooting star That you could always count on I’ll grant you your every wish I’ll give you the world I wish I was a shooting star
69.	ddddddd 01:04		buy track
70.	salvation mountain 05:46	lyrics	buy track
I am untrusting of all patience This hand of mine has recked all thoughts I never existed before this moment And as my wings reach the earth I feel it’s cold deathly hands bring me closer I feel the grip of the burning souls who lost their remembrance tighten As I fall through an abyss of self uncertainty in a farm that raises mal intent We bleed We bleed and I am over the edge We bleed We bleed and I am running And on the death of my own absence of consciousness I leave only one note That when that great barrier devours the most uncertain of all the bastards and cruel-willed men I will be there I will be there I will be there I will be there I will be there
71.	another idea 03:33		buy track
72.	cool chords 01:07		buy track
73.	ideaaa 00:55		buy track
74.	cool chords II 02:05		buy track
75.	classical idea 01:38		buy track
76.	song idea IIX 02:25		buy track
77.	really cool chords 02:30		buy track
78.	i recorded this on my birthday 00:33		buy track
79.	vocal melody idea 00:42		buy track
80.	scraps of childhood 02:42		buy track
81.	sounds like alt-j 02:33		buy track
82.	crash (demo) 04:01		buy track
83.	stupid guitar 01:50		buy track
84.	some chords 01:37		buy track
85.	metal idea 04:32		buy track
86.	jazz fusion thingy 02:09		buy track
87.	new track 00:52		buy track
88.	shitty acoustic thing 04:02		buy track
89.	gibson tapping thing 03:00		buy track
90.	sounds like hozier 01:51		buy track
91.	guitar idea II 00:48		buy track

about

the songs i'm leaving behind from april 2017 - february 2021. almost a hundred unreleased demos, scraps, and whatever else i could find. many songs were cut due to various reasons.

#1-20 = what would've been a second album
#21-31 = electronic stuff
#32-36 = piano
#37-45 = kinds outtakes and demos and whatever else
#46-65 = old old stuff and misc.
#66-91 = ending 2020, beginning 2021, and closer to who i am

(volumes for streaming reference)
volume 1: #1-30
volume 2: #31-60
volume 3: #61-91

thank you :)

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released February 13, 2021

Locon Records

Music and Lyrics by Foster Jonathon Hilding

Some songs stolen from Erik Satie, Red House Painters, New Order

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